[R] Romantic Night ~Seth~

[natasha]

I didn't know where we were going and why and I didn't feel anything but the pain of absolute loss. I felt like I failed as a parent already to keep my baby safe. I sobbed into his chest more. I wondered if he felt the same destinctive pain that would haunt me for a long time, possibly the rest of eternity.

I felt myself very tired and my eyes slowly drifted close and wandered to rest for now. I knew he was carrying me, but now that I was asleep and very deeply asleep, I might add, I couldn't notice anything. I drempt of a billowing forest where I was with Seth. It was a forest where everything was just trees, no cave, no sense of smell, no ability to escape danger. The vampire plummeted towards Seth and killed him. I reached out, but couldn't do anything. Why wasn't I doing anything?

**3 hours later**

I was woken up by what seemed to be a werewolf houl and I noticed my body lay limp on the bed of their new home covered in a thin layer of sweat. I sat straight up knowing Seth wasn't there. I stood on my feet and looked out the window noticing it was dark and it was quiet in the house. I knew Seth was gone. What if he was in trouble? I panicked and began pacing. I figured he might come home and if he didn't in an hour, I would go searching.

I grabbed a towel from the tall closet down the hallway and turned the corner into the bathroom. I quickly hopped in and bathed my sweaty body. I stayed standing there fore a moment letting the hot water slowly roll over my body. I turned the water off and dried myself as I wrapped the towel around my body and looked at the bathroom. It looked nice. I hadn't known Seth had a place he was keeping for us was my guess.

I walked out of the bedroom and down the hall glancing at the very nice home she hoped they could stay in now. I went into the kitchen still in my white bathroom towel and I peered at the plate of food Seth had prepared and didn't want to eat anything. I pushed it away. I didn't want to hurt his feelings, but I......

I clutched my stomach and fell to my knees and sat against the counter crying again. I covered my face with one hand and breathed deeply. I didn't move for long miserable minutes on end. I finally decided to get up and peered into the kitchen. I moved to the fridge finding a bottle of wine. I peered at it for a second and wrapped my skinny fingers around the neck of the bottle. I took it out and unpopped the cork and took a nice wine glass out and filled it and put the cork back in the bottle and placed it in the fridge.

I took the wine in my hand and traveled to the living room where I took a seat on the couch and sipped the wine. I lifted a remote to the stereo and clicked on. I needed something to get rid of the feeling.

[Seth Meyer]

I howled out my sorrow and pain for another hour and finally dully thought that I should go home to Natasha. She might have woke up and be worried that I wasn't there. while still in wolf form I walked home and it was a long walk to the house I made for us. I had thought of having child in that house and now when it had been so close, it had been ripped away. I was miserable and felt like just dieing, my heart was dead already. I still love Natasha and would for all time, that had't changed. But I had wanted the first child if Natasha was ever to become pregnant and now they were gone. I howled out again as I stopped for a moment.

It was a long walk back to the house and as another hour passed, I soon found myself at the door. I couldn't face Natasha now and not with tears trailing down my wolfy face. I phased back to my human form and sat out side the house with no close on. It was a dumb thing to just sit there nude like this and yet I didn't really care. I cared about the fact that I had, had a chance to become a father. And it was taken before the joy of the new made me leap happily. I never gone to know that joy because of a Vampire who attacked us and killed my son or daughter. I would never get to know the baby or know the joy of father hood. It was ripped away from me and Natasha both, we were cheated the chance to be mommy and daddy. More tears fell down my face and I hide my face in one of my hands. I had to forget this, but I could never forget it either and soon enough I walked in the house to the room. I shut the door and quickly dressed, then came back out to see Natasha drinking wine. She had kind of a good idea and so I went to the fridge to grabbed the bottle. I opened it and drink from it, it tasted good. But also it dulled the pain a little bit and so with a wine glass I walked over to Natasha to sit with her. I poured myself a cup of wine and placed the bottle on a table near us, then I was drinking from the cup.

[natasha]

I heard footsteps against the door outside the house and sighed. Now I knew Seth was mourning. I heard him walk in, but didn't turn my head at first and by the time I did, he was already gone. I turned back and tapped one of my long nails against the wine glass, not crying, just sitting and listening to the radio, trying not to think.

I heard him rummaging through the fridge and grabbing a glass. He came in with the whole wine bottle and sat down next to me while he poured himself a glass of the sweet, yet strong wine. I glanced at him for a second and then placed my head on his shoulder gently just feeling, only just. I lifted my head and sipped the wine. It was a destinctive flavor that was very sweet flavor of a white grape. I didn't say anything for a while, now thinking about what I would say. I looked at him. He was fully dressed. I almost glanced down and then remembered my towel was the only covering I had on my body.

"Seth, I am not going to sleep tonight. I didn't eat. I can't really think straight. I can't go long periods without crying. I can't feel anything except pain. Seth, I need your help to get over this. I will be there for you also. I know you want to be strong for me and I need that, but I know you are suffering whether you decide to show that to me or not. Seth, I love you. This isn't our last chance to have a child. I know this is hard, but we have to try to go on differently than we are now."

I couldn't believe I actually said that. I was trying to move on, but not forget about this miscarriage. I loved what was almost and it was going to be hard, but I knew we could move on in the near future. I knew we could always try again.

[Seth Meyer]

I listened to Natasha with a pain in my heart and also feeling bad for her, I should be comforting her, not the other way around. I looked at her with dull dark blue eyes and also pain showed in them for this loss. It had been our first chance and it was ripped away. I felt cheated of it and now she was telling me that we had to move on. Some where in my heart I knew she was right and yet this pain I felt hurt so bad. I then noticed that she was only covered with a towel and I thought about when I first came in. I didn't recall seeing her like this and at that moment it hit me, the pain was dulling my mind. I took a sip from mywine glass and looked at Natasha's face "your right, I guess I just feel cheated of the chance" I whispered the words of pain.

I hadn't wanted to tell her this words and I just wanted to go on, continuing with my sorrow, morning this loss. But I had to be there for Natasha and help her too. I put the wine glass down and wrapped my arms around her, I kissed her cheek. I didn't want to let go until the pain went away and I knew it would be a while before the pain turely went away. But I was going to stay with Natasha and she was right about we could try again to have a child. I couldn't leave her because of a miscarriage that wasn't her fault. It had been that Vampire's fault and one day I would kill him for it. I'd kill him for the pain he gave Natasha and me, I would make sure that no other Vampire ever did this again "I love you so much Natasha" I told her with all the love I felt for her.

[natasha]

My eyes filled with tears at what he said and I managed to hold them back this time. I nodded at the part where he said we got cheated of our chance at parents. I felt the tears push harder to make their ways out as he clutched me. I broke down again and wrapped my skinny arms around him.

"I love you Seth. I will never stop. I won't forget what almost was. I will always miss and love that undeveloped child."

I buried my head into his broad chest and cried again. I missed him so much, but I missed my child. I tightened my grip on him and pulled him on top of me. I just wanted to lay there like that. I wanted him close to me. I wanted to lay there all night with him there.

"Seth, I don't want to loose you, not ever. I love you Seth. I love you."

I said and didn't know when I would stop saying that tonight. I needed to suffocate the pain right now. It was too overwhelming, too sadening. I needed to be there for him and I felt like I needed to suffer his pain for him, but I wanted to suffocate my own. I couldn't do this and the only thing that was keeping me alive right now, was Seth.

"Seth, don't ever leave me. If you do, I won't be alive long. You are the only thing I am living for in this world. Samantha used to be enough, but that is no longer true."

[Seth Meyer]

I listened to her words and knew that she was in as pain as I was. I kissed her deeply and stayed on top of her as she wanted. But I didn't know what to really do anymore and I wanted the pain to go away. But I didn't want to forget the baby that hadn't even been given the chance to be born. I kissed her deeper and had my dark blue eyes closed while doing so. I don't know what came over me and I felt like just kissing her. I broke the kiss and breathed in deeply before I started to kiss her neck, then her shoulder. I was between her neck and shoulder kissing her, just loving her. I saw the towle fall a little bit and it made me shake a little bit at the sight.

But what about Natasha, how did she feel about this and would she be willing after this painful loss. I couldn't help it right now and that was because she was in a towle, you can see where I'm getting at. I kissed on the lips again lightly and then I deepened the kiss agian. I had a hand slip under the towle and I trailed my hand down her side to her hips. Then down her leg and up again. I broke our kiss again "I love you too Natasha and I'll never leave you" I said with all the love I felt for her.

[natasha]

I was completely and utterly confused. I was hugging Seth who was on top of my body that only was barracated with a towel and now he was kissing me in a loving fashion that went beyond the normal kiss. My body's first response was to kiss Seth back, but my mind said to mourn the loss of an unknown baby. I thought about it for a moment or two and wondered what I should do.....I came up with no answer and when he kissed me again and said what he did and slid his hands down the side of my hip and then my leg, my body shook with excitement and I began kissing him deeply as one side of the towel slowly slid off from Seth's arm that glided on my body from underneath the towel.

I let my body do the talking as I moved my hands to his guarded chest. I slipped my hands down the front of his torso feeling every muscle and every curve. I stopped at the hem of his shirt and slid my hands underneath and pulled it up over Seth's head. I began kissing his neck and trailed kisses along his chest while I craned my neck and then I slowly moved to his lips and kissed deeper and slid my tongue over his lips begging for an entrance. I looked into his eyes now and wondered what came over the two of us. We had just lost a child and this is how we were going along.

[Seth Meyer]

I kissed Natasha again and move off from on top of her. I was breathing heavily after that and looked at her with a loving smile "I'm glad that you would still be willing to do this if we decided to have another child" I said with a weak smile. I had wanted to know if she would still want that and now I knew that it would be the same after this. I sat beside her and kissed her lips again before pulling covers on top of us. It was late and well I wanted to sleep, but if she wanted to continue. I would be willing to at anytime and almost anywhere.

I had a feeling that she would want to still kiss and so I kissed her again. This time when she tried to get entrance to my mouth I let her in as I deepened the kiss. I sat beside her this time and loved ever moment of the kiss. My thoughts were on the child we'd lost and some how this helped with the pain. My heart felt her love and how much she cared for me. I hated that we were morning the loss of an unborn child and that this seem to be the only way for my pain to be relived. I hoped her own pain was being took away from just this being close and making her feel loved. Oh I loved her with all my heart and couldn't never stop loving her as much.

[natasha]

I smiled at what he said slightly and responded.

"Seth, how could I not want what I was denied? I surely know that we both desire a child and one day we will have children."

I said as I kissed him as he rolled to his side and I faced him. I drew my hands down and touched the clasp of his pants and unbuttoned and unzipped. I pushed downward until he was fully declothed. I placed kisses under the covers on his stomach and moved upward as I appeared out from under the blanket and trailed them on his chest and went upward as tears slowly came. I knew it might be slightly hard. It was somewhat hard for me to get fully past one component of why we were doing this. It relieved some pain, but I knew it would be back later on afterwards.

I stopped and wrapped my arms around Seth and kissed him once before lifting my head to Seth. I could smell the delightful and sweet scent of the wine on Seth's breath. I looked at him with sparkling chocolate brown eyes for a moment just lying there next to him.

"Seth, I want you to understand that it might be somewhat hard for me at times. I love you with all my heart and soul and you are the key ingredient to keep me living as always."

I said as I brought myself to kiss him again not wanting to say anymore that would cause me more tears as they began plummeting down the sides of my cheeks and dripped onto his face.

[Seth Meyer]

I felt her pull my pants off and it confused me as to why do this after the first child was killed because of that bastard. I kissed her and then listened to he words. It would be hard for us both and I swallowed hard as I saw the tears. I was going to kill that bastard for being the one to place those tears in her beautiful brown eyes. She started us up at kissing again and I felt like a bastard at trying to have her do this. I could't do this with her right now and I didn't even get to voice this before she kissed me. My eyes closed and my body took over of everything I was doing.

I pushed myself back on top of her since she took my closthen off of me. I couldn't help it she was so beautiful and for now I just kissed her. I didn't want make her do this if she wasn't ready to do it again yet. But it was too temping and was trying to hold back. It was hard for me to try with her again and yet the body gets what the body wants, if you know what I mean. I opened my eyes again and saw that those tears were still on her face. I broke the kiss and wiped away what was left of the first set of tears. I was looking at her to see what she'd say and I swallow hard yet again. I was nervous about this and I knew she felt pain from the child we lost.

[natasha]

"Seth, if you don't want to, you don't have to. I love you and I can accept your decision either way."

I said as he looked at me as though he felt sad for me, but like his body was controlling him. I rolled over onto our sides. I didn't want him to do something that he wasn't conciously ready for. I questioned my own ability to do this. I wondered if I was in the same position.

"Seth, I know we both aren't ready for this now. I don't think we should go through with this. I am sorry I tempted you to do something like this when you weren't ready."

I told him as I closed my eyes and buried my head into his chest. I wrapped my arms around him and planned to fall asleep unless he really wanted to continue. I felt guilty for pushing this again, but the truth was that we both started this and went back on our decisions making it hard for one another.

"Seth, I am so sorr....."

I cut off crying again. I didn't know what I was doing any longer. I layed my hands out flat on his chest and cried more. I felt so bad for doing this to Seth. Our motive for this was completely the wrong one. I still stayed there burrying my head in his chest and I didn't plan to leave there any time soon unless he wanted me to or lifted my head to look at him.

[Seth Meyer]

She pushed me off and started to talk with me, it was ture I wasn't sure if I was ready to do this again. I looked at the ceiling and then felt her put her head on my chest. I just breathed in, out and listened to her, she was crying. I wasn't sure what to do with myself anymore and I couldn't just leave after I promised not to ever leave. I had my alone time and she had, had hers. But still the pain of the child being taken and the pain of seeing her cry a new, broke my heart even more. I felt something warm trail down my cheek and I didn't even move to wipe it away. I wrapped my arms around Natasha to comfort her and we just laid there with tears in our eyes.

I was a proud man and it hurt a lot knowing that I should of kept Natasha safe from that bastard. I should of kept him away from her and it was my fault that she felt like she did. Now I felt a new kind of pain and that was broken pride. My dark blue eyes darkened and were dull, I couldn't help but feel that it was my fault that the baby had been killed beofore it had a chance at life. I placed my free hand over my eyes and kept breathing normally. Not wanting Natasha to know my hurt and pain of what Chace had done to us. I laid there with the woman I loved and never wanted to leave.