I can't take it any longer!!!

[devon]

Swiftly dashing through the thick tress, scenting the air for the scent of my prey. I was on the trail of a small mother deer. Man I hated to think of the poor little baby deer all alone when I kill it's mother. The baby deer will be a alone and defenseless against all the other creatures that roamed these forest. But I couldn't think about that at the moment anyway. In a couple of hours it was off to school with the rest of my family and Edward had promised me that the next time I snapped at Bella he was going to kill me. Only if he could but Edward being Edward and so overprotective towrds Bella, he probly could find a way to make that happen.

A couple of minutes into my hunt I picked up the scent of a lone rabbit. It was a small rabbit but thinking of the baby deer alone, with no one to look after it...well let's just say it brought back some painful memories. With the little remaining memories I had left I was with the group of newborn vampires are the memories, well the only memories that I could actually treasure. And I would for the rest of my life. Or,since I'll live for ever anyways, at least until the world dies. Or considering on how I wanted Bella's blood in mouth, tantalizing my taste buds with it's heavenly taste...

"Ouch!" I hissed as I looked down to see my fangs sunk into the lower proportion of my arm,close to my wrist.Luckily I couldn't really feel it bu the slight remembrance of pain caused me to involuntary hiss with pain. I released my grip on my arm and looked at the damage I had caused. "Well it nothing serious but Alice is probably gonna have some sturn words for me when she sees this. I flung my head into the air and began to find the scent of the rabbit again and in one swift movement my fangs were clamped around the rabbits neck. I drained it completely and tossed it off some where to the side. Then thinking, I dashed over to it, with the speed undetectably to human eye and picked it up a lay ed it under the large sycamore tree closeted to me and said a few words of...remembrance on the poor creature who served it's propose of quenching my ravenous thirst.Then I ran back to the house.Jumping up to my window seal I climbed in and jumped to the cold, hardwood floors. Unlocking my door and stepping out I walked down the steps."Where was Alice?" I wondered to myself then I wondered was Alice close enough to hear me.

[Alice Cullen]

There was Jasper in the woods. Hunting a innocent deer and rabbit. Wait.....why was Jasper biting his arm. He started running towards the house in a quick fashion and entered through his bedroom window. I was released from my vision and I sat up automatically with excitement.

Suddenly my hair stood up on the back of my neck at the sound of that special voice. I came creeping down the steps and wrapped my skinny, white arms around his body. "Yes....." I could not with hold myself from smiling uncontrollably. I had been waiting for him patiently for what seemed like eternity. "So how is your arm that you had bitten?" I said in a hypothetical way. "What caused you to do it this time?" I said in a worried tone.

I immediately uncleanched myself from his body and walked in front of him slowly trying to direct his eyes to myn. I suddenly realized how really thirsty I am and how much I had procrastinated. I saw that his eyes became the honey golden color that always told me when he just hunted.

"I am going to have to go hunt. I do not want Bella coming over when I am not prepared." I said even knowing I could handle myself. I wanted to make possitive that there were no chances I could ever hurt that fragile Bella who I held near and dear as a sister.

I want to know what Jasper is thinking. I retreated to hugging him. I intend to stay like this for as long as he prefers me to. I looked down at his white arm and brushed my skinny white finger over his self-inflicted wound.

[devon]

As I came down the large stairway, halfway down Alice met me and wrapped her skinny arms around me."I love you to."I said as I returned the hug and wrapped my strong powerful arms around her skinny waist. She had put her head on my chest.My chest was not as wide as Emmet's but it did do me some fair

justus every now and again,like now. I pulled my arms away from her waist and lifted her head in my hands to look at her beautiful face. I glanced over her cheek bone,brushing my finger across as I went and I looked at her smile,her wonderful smile,my little Alice looked like the little kid that everyone thought her to be.Then as I looked at her eyes it caught me off gaurd.Not even hearing what she had said,my voice came out firm."Alice what

have I told you about letting yourself get so thirsty?"I asked.I was trying to sound angry but with Alice it was almost impossible to be angry so my voice came out as a heavy sigh.Before she could answer I scooped her up and I walked to the foot of the stairs and I sat her down.With my sense of smell I

could smell what seemed to be motor oil. "I hope Rosalie finished the car,I wanna drive."I said anticipating on driving to sweet souped out little red car that Rosalie had been working on for almost...forever.Emmet had tweaked it so you could drive it fast without worrying about the gears wearing out so soon. Then walking over to the garaged I reached in the pocket of my blue hoodie to pull out my i-Pod that Carlise had bought me so I would look like the typical teen-aged boy.Even though I was about a hundred years older than your typical teenager I still had

to look the part.Also that would be the reason why I was wearing my hoodie as well.It was late October and the wind was picking up,even though it felt just fine to me most humans would get suspicious about a teenage boy walking around in a T-shirt and shorts in 30 degree weather."So You got it working?" I asked Rosalie who was up under the car tinkering and cursing to herself in a low voice.

[Alice Cullen]

I laughed inside at what seemed to be Jasper trying to be mad at me for getting thirsty. Before I could get a word out, he left.

I huffed a little angry at the sudden disappearence of Jasper. I ended up following him and started to listen to their conversation. Finally, we stopped and I came to his side quite clingy at the moment and slid my hand into his.

I hoped he would not think too much of this and get all freaked out. I glanced at his perfect face that I just could not refuse. I looked down knowing the was practically finished.

I nonchalantly let go of his slightly larger hand. I glanced at the tinkering Rosalie. "She is almost done." I said knowing that in just a few minutes it would be all finished and ready to run. "Do you need any help? You have Jasper and I here at any time you need us." I said in somewhat of a motherly tone.

I sat down beside Rosalie who was one of the most beautiful girls I had ever seen. Rosalie was usually known as the pretty girl. I felt somewhat bland next to her.

I held my head up on my sturdy palm bored by the sudden scilence that came over me. "Rosalie, would you like to go hunting with me today sometime?" I kept waiting patiently for any sign that she needed my help. I felt useless and lazy.

I looked at Jasper wondering if he felt the same way. I looked back at the vibrant car that glistened in wonderful arrays. It reminded me of when I went out into the sun that seemed to beat down on me and be directed to my skin that suddenly glistened, but more powerfully.

[devon]

As Alice grabbed my hand I tensed up.Then looking over my shoulder at Alice I loosened up and tangled my fingers to intertwine with hers.Then she let go and walked off. I think I pouted a bit.Weird huh?Gathering myself

together I walked over to the other side of the car and in one swift movement was under the car. "So you getting it done or are you just taking a cat nap?"I asked playfully. Looking up at the many many pipes and tubes running the length of the car. "Um I'm not Emmet but,I think that pipe shout connect to the tube over there."I said pointing to a pipe and a tube. If I was

wrong I didn't want to stay down there for she might throw something at me.I slid out from up under the car and walked over toward Alice."I think she's gonna be down there for a bit,so I was wondering could I take you hunting?"I asked playing with the head phones to me i-Pod.Then scrolling down I came to a

song."Oh Alice this song is really cool."I said giving her a head phone.The song I was talking about was a sine by Linging Park called Valentine's Day.I found the song easy to listen to when I was away from Alice for a long time.Witch for me a lone time

being away from Alice was about three in a half seconds.WE listen there until the song ended."Well,you like it?"I asked looking at her and smiling a bit.

[Alice Cullen]

I looked as Jasper came down by Rosalie's side willing to help at any chance and responded to Jasper, "If you would like to come you can." I felt excedingly happy now that he was going to attend me when I hunted.

I listened carefully to the song that buzzed through my ears. It was quite beautiful and made me feel at home. I kissed him on the cheek and I laced my hand in his again. "I love it." I said smiling.

I asked, "Should we go now?" I was a bit impatient to have him all to myself once again. I looked into his golden eyes and knew we felt exactly the same at that moment. I scanned his beautiful face for any worry at all, finding none.

I decided to stand up and looked toward the dark, inviting woods that seemed only inches away. I looked down at him still holding his hand excited to wander into the woods with him. It seemed somewhat childish, but that is what makes my attractive personality a little bit. I laughed once at my thoughts.

I wondered what he thought many times when we were apart. Although I did that when we were together also. I wondered what he thought about what I said and how I looked. He was the only person that made me worry about those types of things. I often lost myself with him and I do not know if I then just found my real self with him. It was wierd how sometimes our relationship made me confused.

[devon]

Looking at Alice smile I couldn't hide the smile that lit up my pale face."I'm glad you like it."I said and took both her hands in my hands and held them up to my lips and kissed them. If there was any blood in my body I would have bit lit up

with a cherry red blush. Pulling myself together I walked over to the door to the garage and stepped out helping as we went.Looking over at her I asked "So...Where would you like to hunt today?""I think there is a deer some where over there,I know that's your favorite." Then placing her on my back I began to run of into the direction that I smelled the deer.Throwing my head back to talk to her on the way, the bite mark on my arm began to burn."Holy..."Comming to a rough stop I grabbed my

arm in my hand."What the devil?!?"I said as the burning ran up my arm and spread across my chest.Then it went through my torso and down my legs and up again.I tried my best to hide the pain from Alice,no need for her to worry about me,but I couldn't grasp the one and only scream that escaped my mouth.Then as

fast as it begun the pain stopped.Holding my arm up to my face I could see the bite mark was glowing like fire,flickering on and of."Did I inject venom into my own arm?!?!"I asked myself in my head."Oh god I hope Alice didn't hear that!"I screamed in my head as soon as the though rambled through my head.

[Alice Cullen]

I would have blushed a rose-like red if I were human as he kissed my hand. I smiled at the way he helped me find what I needed.

When he picked me up and started running, I placed my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his neck loosely. I smiled slightly waiting for the deer to come into sight.

I felt Jasper cringe slightly. I became a little suspicious. I heard him say, "Did I inject venom into my own arm?" I pulled away from him and I raced in front of him trying to get a better glance of what the problem seemed to be. I faced him, my smile fading, and I glanced at his wound on his arm which seemed to be glowing every other 10 seconds. I became very blunt now.

I said, "We are taking you to Carlisle. I will hunt later." I couldn't help, but be worried. I have never encountered something like this before, but I had a possible idea of what it was. It could have possibly been the venom, but that shouldn't have effected him, right? I became confused, but certainly the intelligent Carlisle will know. I really wasn't up for Jasper refusing to go to see Carlisle. I knew it was coming.

I grabbed his arm carefully placing my hands on either side of his wound. I examined it watching it glow like fire. "This had to be the venom," I thought carefully now creating a crease in my forehead. I looked up towards him with a worried face. I always loved to know what the risks were and what the problem was. It made my head a little clearer.

I carefully let go of his arm and stared to look at the place where the deer was gone now. I guess I wouldn't go hunting with Jasper after all. I became a little depressed by this thought.

[devon]

"Alice."I said as I looked into my lovers eyes.Even though they were black as night,I could still tell she was upset and a little depressed.I looked at my arm,Alice's cool hands sooth the burning sensation a bit but not much.Ignoring

the pain I felt in my arm I took Alice's face in my hands."I'll be fine."I said as I heard her thoughts."You go hunt alright,I'll make it back to the house in one piece--besides I think that deer is still close by."I said winking.Then another pain shoot through my arm.Grabbing my arm as I turned away from Alice I almost bit my

arm again.An old habit that I now I know I shouldn't do any more."Jasper are you alright?"I heard Carlise's voice in my head."What do you think?"I replied back in a very rugged tone.Something I shouldn't do twoards Carlise.I glanced over shoulder only to find Alice looking at me with worried eyes."Love don't look at me like that."I said as I let go of my arm as the pain

subsided and walked back over to her and put my arms around her waist.I leaned down to kiss her forehead but as I did she cringed."What is it love?"I asked my voice confused.Then I quickly changed the subject.I couldn't show her how much I was scared,I just wouldn't allow myself to do so.To make her worry

more than she had to.I really wished that she would go hunting for I see the hunger in her eyes.But for some reason I wanted her there with me.To hold my hand like a mother would do for a small child.But I was never going to say that aloud.I guess that was another reason why I loved her so.

[Alice Cullen]

I felt a little abandoned. I knew he didn't like my eyes as black as they were. I didn't like it that way either, but as he came over and hugged me comfortingly, I cringed. "I just.....I just am worried." I said knowing I was worried what would happen now.

"I'm coming with. Don't dare deny me that. I love you and I just need to be with you now." I said now hugging him tightly not wanting anything to happen to Jasper. It was natural for me to be worried even at the slightest hint of a problem.

"Come on." I said taking his hand in mine and started walking towards our house where the doctor, Carlisle is located. I knew he could figure it out and specify what the problem clearly was. I didn't want to let go of Jasper at this point. I knew he would like that so that was good enough for me. I knew he also wanted what was best for me, but technically he wanted me there with him more. I could tell.

I walked slowly with him towards the house that seemed darker than ever. I hoped we would be able to hunt together today, but it seemed we would never get the chance to share that time together. I knew he needed me so I would stay with him. I just hoped that no one else would really know what had happened. Even though naturally everyone in the Cullen family knew everything that went on.

[devon]

I smiled at the love of my life."Alice,I don't...I don't want you to see me like this,in pain that is."I said stumbling for the right words."What I mean is that..."I went blank.Alice always had that effect on me.When ever I was

around her I could never find the right words to say.Seeing that she wouldn't leave with out me I just smiled.Without saying a word I put her on my back and ran like hell back to the house.Having her there wit me made me calm down a bit.I just hopped that Carslie didn't smell like...well the hospital That smell

of other people...humans,some of who had luscious smelling blood, some of witch there blood smelled dead.But none of that compared to Bella's.Speaking of Bella...would she be there at the house???Stopping in full run was hard but I managed.My eyes grew wide with the though of me hurting Bella."Alice,will Bella be

at the house?"I asked not letting my fear show.I really didn't want Alice worrying so much about me.Walking up to the steps,my palms were shaking and the burning in my arm had came back.I wanted to yell out in pain but I had Alice on my back."Carslie,were the heck are you?"I called out in my mind.If he was here he could hear me.

[Alice Cullen]

I smiled at him sweetly which I guess made him completely loose his train of thought. I thought about Bella coming over. I knew I had seen her earlier. I called out to Edward in my thoughts, "Don't let Bella come over." I knew Jasper was in pain and this would only make it worse. "She was, but I'll take care of it. Don't worry." I said trying to help him. I felt like he was going to scream out in pain. I was quite worried. We finally arrived at the house. I wanted him to let me down so he would have an easier time of dealing with the pain. It was probably not the best thing to be lifting me when he had an injury that was inconclusive at the moment.

I ran my white fingers through his soft hair. I wished he wasn't hurting. It made me cringe a little whenever it seemed like he was feeling a rush of pain. "Maybe you should let me down, Jasper." I said feeling guilty for letting him do all the work when he is suffering. I started explaining something, "You know I don't care whether you show your pain or not. You don't have to be so...." I stopped thinking he was already in bad enough position to do anything about this, but sometimes it bothers me how hard he tries to cover up things that he thinks would utterly embarrass him. I wish he would sometimes just let me see him how he truly is, but I guess I can deal with it because it doesn't mean the end of the world.

[devon]

"Uh wow well...huh."Yet she has done it again.She smiles and I'm a complete idiot."I guees Alice really..."I didn't aurguer any longer for I could tell by the expresstion on her face that I wan't going to win.I set her down and we walked the rest of the way up the stairs holding hands.I glanced over at

but she looked over at me so I smiled and I turned my head to look right in front of me again.THen I glanced her way again.She was stunning.Even for a vampire in my eyes she shined brighter than the very sun itself.Then the pain in my arm kicked up again and I froze.I hissed until the pain became bareabul.THen I looked over at Alice and smiled."See I don't hide everything from you." I said with a grin.Wlking down the hall we came to the Carlise's

door.I lifted my hand to knock but before my hand even touched the cool wood I heard him call from the room."Come in you two." He said as I oped the doo and walke din with Alice not to far behind me."Okay Carlise we have a really big problem here."I said walking over to stand infront of his desk."Look."I said as I

pulled my sleave up for him to see the wound that was glowing like fire beneith my skin."I think some how I injected my own venom into my arm."I said in a harsh tone.Not twroads him but tworads my own stupidness.

[Alice Cullen]

I watched him freeze in pain and say what he said. I just wish he didn't do that all the time. As he held my hand, I smiled as we walked together to Carlisle's room. I remembered the first time I entered this room many centuries ago even in my visions. I remember all the stories he told me that matched with the paintings on the wall.

As we approached him, Jasper held his arm up and it seemed to look worse before than before on our way to hunt. I saw Carlisle examine it in his doctorly way. It made me curious how he always handled things like this. I couldn't even imagine what it was like to spend your day around a human and their blood. I know I am able to handle myself around Bella, but still that job would overwhelm me unto the point of hurting someone which I would never want to do or live with.

I wondered what Carlisle would say and I even kind of wanted to be what we expected so that we would know what would happen next. I rested my head on his shoulder trying to comfort him in any way possible. If I could have done anything to relieve his pain, I would, but I don't know what I could do at the moment. Is there anything we can do to help him? I asked Carlisle. I really was lost on what I should do besides be there for him at the moment.

[devon]

Carlise looked at my self inflickted wound. He hadn't even said a word, well if you would count a buch of hmmm's and ahhh's as words then he said alot. I tenced up slightly as he dropped his gaze and looked at me. THen I relaxed a bit when Alice placed her head upon my shoulder. Oh Alice,my Alice, how I loved her so. It litery burned me up inside to see her worry. And it made me beat myself up because I was the one to cause her to worry. I sighed as I placed my free hand on her head, burring my face in her short, light brown hair. I felt her body relax as I started to ease the tenction in the room with my gift. Letting the effects work the sink into myself as well. If I wsa relaxed,she would be relaxed as also. I looke dback down at my arm again, noticing how it seemed to glow benith my hard,pale white skin. It didn't hurt as much as it did while we were hunting but it still stinged slightly. I felt the burn in my thraot again as I tried not to think about Bella,bu ttha twas almost impossibul.

(My computer is gonna shut down any second so I'm just gonna post ans modify it when I turn it back on.)