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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 10, 2008 17:33:47 GMT -6
It had only been a day since I wondered in to those other wolfs and I hadn't said much to them. I wasn't much of a talker this days and I still had that fear that my little sister was dead. I didn't feel her mind connected to my own and it was driving my mad. I was staying in my wolf form more and more, so that I didn't have to feel the pain of lose and to not believe that I was the last of my pack. I was alone now and I felt so alone without my little sister, Ann. She had only been 14 at the time of those Vampire's taking her and I had this bad feeling that they've killed her. It broke my heart to think so and it broke my heart even more at the thought of her being gone forever. I remembered what she looked like. She had looked a lot like our mother, with those bright blue eyes and the long golden blond hair that went to the small of her back. She was very slim much like our dea mother and she had a strong spirit much like our dead father. I was the one who got their angry and hot headness, but I also had the blond hair, but it was a sandy blond like our father. My dark blue eyes were those of dads and I was stronger then Ann in all ways. It was painful to think of her while I was sitting out in this woods looking like a lone big silver wolf who was doing nothing. I was sitting on a big rock that I found and was looking at the clouds again, but they still didn't help my troubled mind.
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Post by natasha on Aug 10, 2008 18:00:26 GMT -6
I stumbled my way into the forest exhausted from the lack of sleep that had passed over me since Wolfenheart's death. The last time I saw Chris, I was unwanted and felt immediately alone again. I felt tears come now. I was in my human form allowing my nearly black hair to fall below my shoulder blades on my back. I knew my eyes look like watery brown ones and hurt was embedded in them. I fell getting mud all over my top and my jeans. My white tank now held a dark brown mud splatter across the front and I tried to push my body up, but fell once more.
I heard someone else and my head lifted to find a gray wolf whose coat shined like silver under the trees. I felt the tears start to roll more. I missed Wolfenheart and just one wolf would remind me of that. I tried to get up, but my body was becoming more week as I went from week to week with sleep deprivation and lack of food. I was able to pull myself up into a sitting position and cupped one of my wrists in my hands. They both ached horribly. Most of my bones did.
I decided to get on the same level as this other wolf. I felt my spine tingle in pain and then coarse through the rest of my body. I groaned in a split second of pain and then my white coat puffed out and the long coat has become an inch longer from the last week and I shedded a lot lately because of the lack of nutrition. I groaned slightly as I stood up while my legs shaked below me and I collapsed.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 10, 2008 19:42:37 GMT -6
I looked down from my postion on my rock and saw the white wolf laying on the ground. I stiffly jumped down from the big rock I'd been sitting on and limped over to the white one. I sniffed it and relized that it was female. I looked at her with my dark blue eyes and wondered what was wrong with her. She looked thin and under fed, it was no wonder she didn't look well. I had to do something to help and it would mean I'd have to phase in to my human form, to feel all the pain of my own lose. I didn't want to feel that pain and ended up being like this female who'd been human her whole time after her own lose. I had no choice, so I stood beside the female and for once since I met her and her pack I took on my human form. It was painful for a met or so and when finally I was on my hands and knees. I had no close and with only blankets for warmth that Julius let me have in the cave in case I took my Human form. I picked up the white wolf and slowly started to limp away from this area. I after only a few moments started to run and my limp wasn't as bad. But when I got to the cave and I made a fire for the muddy Female. I felt this terrible pain in my heart and soon left the white wolf alone to rest. I covered myself with a blanket and since I was tired from the running, I sat there. My sandy blond hair was at my shoulders now and well I realized that I needed a hair cut soon. But then I remembered what Ann would have said if she saw me like this "Big brother if you don't get a hair soon, I'll be the one to cut while you sleep" she would say with an evil smile on her face. I always answered "No, please don't, I don't want for you bad hair cuts" I would tell her and she would start to hit me. I would be laughing and then she would start to laugh with me. The laughter echoed in my mind and so did her voice. It was a good time and a painful memory. I watched the white she- wolf rest and wondered if she'd ever wake.
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Post by natasha on Aug 10, 2008 20:03:42 GMT -6
I felt my legs nearly collapse, but I still kept walking. I wonder where he was taking me. He had phased right in front of me and he seemed nice enough. I would smile, but couldn't. I couldn't stay awake anymore so when we got to the cozy cave and the warmth splashed over me, I instantly fell asleep for a few hours.
I had a very good dream though. It was about Wolfenheart. I probably murmured his name a few times while I dozed off. It was a pleasurable dream, one that I wished I could have shared with him before he died and now that was gone. My good dream had turned into a nightmare. It flashed to the day he died. I instantly woke up and felt my muzzle was wet. I must have cried in my sleep.
My big blue eyes fell upon the man I had seen earlier. I looked down at my wolf form and noticed I no longer had any clothing to where. I felt better though now that I had gotten sleep. I noticed this stranger had blankets and one was conveniently to my side. I grabbed it with my muzzle and draped it over myself after a few minutes of moving it back and forth to get it over my wolf body just right.
I phased back, my hair sprawled out over the surface of the cave. I nearly screamed. It was so cold to the touch of my skin. My hair had grow quite long and I could see that this stranger also needed a hair cut. I sat up and wrapped the blanket around my exposed skin not allowing anything in particular to be shown. Lately, my body looked quite skinny to a bad extent. I was already thing to begin with and I loved my body the way it was, but now I could see my ribs slightly jutting out and I really needed to fix this.
After a good amount of sleep, things were cleared up for me and I could think straight and logically. I smiled sweetly towards him feeling my stomach go uneasy with hunger. I felt like I could eat forever and ever and not stop being hungry. I looked at him my smile fading. He was kind of attractive. I shook my head. I was already liking a man after my true love was lost.
"I suppose I should go."
I said to him knowing I didn't want to, but I should. I stood up on my feet firmly. I didn't know if I should be staying in some stranger's home. Not much of a home if you ask me. I didn't want to. Both of our eyes clicked together and I couldn't stop looking at his beautiful eyes. My mind screamed no, but my body didn't move.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 10, 2008 20:28:47 GMT -6
I had a blanket laying from my waist down and it was kind of strange being in human form again. But then the white she-wolf woke up and I watched her take the blanket. After the blanket covered her and she phased back to being human. I stared kind of surprised at how beauiful she was and I wondered what she looked like when she wasn't half starved. But then I being to think of the bad luck I was around anyone who I cared about and my dead pack was an example of that luck. But it had been my fault that they died and when I heard the womans belly growl a hungry growl, I gave a half smile. I hadn't smiled in so long, not even a half smile had come to my face for a long now and it felt strang to now.
But I soon stood up and made sure that my blanket was wrapped around my waist. I looked in to her eyes and they were bright blue, a small gasp came from me throat. Those were the same kind of eye's my sister had, a bright blue and for some reason it comforted me some. I walked out of the cave for a moment and soon came back with a box that had caned food in it. I found some canned might and some carrots. I had some pots that were clean and I opened the two cans of food I'd picked out. I started to cook them and after about 15 minutes or so, they food was ready. I had plates in a cornner and made a plate for both of us. I was use to eating just carrots, corn or anything else that didn't need to be cooked.
But I had a quest at the moment and well I decided to use the cooking skills my mother learned me. I held her plate out to her and hoped she would take it, it would be good for a change to have someone eat with me. I stood there with her plate in my hand and watched her face with those bright blue eyes of hers. I wasn't very use to talking anymore and so I did the cooking without even being asked or even telling her that I was a pretty good cook after all the years of cooking for two.
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Post by natasha on Aug 10, 2008 21:21:23 GMT -6
He broke the connection and I still hadn't moved until he did. I wondered where he was going. He came back with cans of vegetables. He started cooking it without saying anything. I smiled at him a little curious. He didn't seem to say anything at all.
"So are you going to talk or do I have to do all the talking?"
My grin widened as I teased him slightly. I imagined myself with him as more than they already were which wasn't much, just slightly acquaintences. Nobody had ever made me smile for a long time. I shook my head at the thought. How could I rush into a relationship that fast? It was too quick. Although, it would help me get over Wolfenheart and then Chris wouldn't be bothered by me so much. I smiled slightly thinking about how this could benefit everyone. I couldn't think of anything bad at the moment.
"My name is Natasha and yours would be?"
I asked in a small and quiet, but sweet voice as my smile softened. I examined his torso. It was well defined and the only exposed skin available to me. I wanted to explore more and I wondered if he desired the same things.
I saw the inviting carrots and scrambled over like I never had eaten anything in my entire life. I slowed myself and gently took the plate and looked at him.
"Thank you."
I said to him and made my way to sit next to him. I shoveled food into my mouth one carrot at a time with my fingertips. It tasted so good and he wasn't a bad cook either.
"This is quite good." I said smiling at him.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 10, 2008 21:38:43 GMT -6
She smiled at me and my heart felt like it wanted to jump out of my chest for a moment. But I handed her the plate that she took and we both sat down. She was next to me eating the food I'd made and was enjoying it. I smiled at her and then when she asked for me name, I didn't know if i was going to be able to even talk after not talking for so long and well I thought maybe it was time that I tried too. I swallowed hard before trying to say anything "I....I'm ......Se...th" I said kind of like I wasn't use to using my voice any more. I'd been a in wolf form for a while before I'd been wounded and well I was going to have to get use of my voice again "I'm Seth Meyer, Natasha is a nice.........name" I got the last part out with only a little trouble. I was to use to being a wolf that only talked with its mind and since there was no one to talk to, it was so silent. I didn't say much more after that and it was mostly because I was looking at her. I saw the skin of her shoulder from the blanket slipping down a bit and I guess my face blushed a bit. But for some reason I thought I wouldn't mind seeing more and it was the truth, but I didn't want her to doing something that she wasn't ready for. What was I thinking, she had just lost a lover and I was thinking of this of all things.
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Post by natasha on Aug 10, 2008 21:57:42 GMT -6
"Nice to meet you, Seth. You are an excellent cook from my perspective. No offense, but how long have you been living here, alone?"
I asked him as I scanned the caves finding no remnance of any other being living here. I felt myself nearly get up and go kiss him, but I contained myself. I blushed making my cheeks rosy red. What was I doing? I looked at him and felt instantaneous guilt wash over me. I wasn't supposed to be in a relationship. I had already been imprinted upon.
My grin widened slightly and then softened a bit as I connected my eyes with his. There was no longer anything else. Nothing. I couldn't stop it. It was addicting, like a drug. I had felt this feeling once more. He was imprinting on me or was it the other way around? I couldn't tell. I kept my eyes on his and smiled, not moving. What was I getting myself into?
I moved closer to him clutching the blanket with one hand. I kissed him. I stopped and sat on my knees. What was I doing? I immediatly didn't move. My body was completely frozen besides my breathing. My eyes widened slightly as I looked at him. I couldn't be falling in love. Why had I come here? I got up and started for the entrance of the cave. I felt a lump in my throat and didn't turn around. I didn't know if he would try to stop me or not.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 10, 2008 22:29:43 GMT -6
I had kissed her back when she kissed me and it kind of surprised me. I stared at her with wide eyes to and blushed even redder then before. I watched her get up and walk toward the cave entrance. I didn't know what to say and I didn't want to see her leave, to never return "Please, wait........Natasha" I said as I stood up with a hand holding the blanket around my waist. I walked over to Natasha and gentle took her arm in my hand. I didn't know what I was doing, I had just met this girl and well it felt strange to me. I had found my Imprint a long time ago and she was dead now because of me. I had tried to protect her and my sister both at the same time. But they were both gone now and I was all alone living in a cave as a Wolf, as a lone wolf. I was kind of confused, I had thought I never would feel this feeling again and it was hard to discripted. I was going to go mad if she left me and I didn't even know why, was I Imprinting another after Terry had dead a month ago. I looked at Natasha and wondered if it was so. I looked in to her blue eyes and saw the eyes of someone who was just as confused a myself. It would have been easer if she didn't have such breath taking eyes of blue.
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Post by natasha on Aug 10, 2008 22:43:36 GMT -6
My heart leaped out of my chest at his deep voice. It was too adicting. Everything about him was too addicting. I looked at him and sighed. I didn't know if I could stay. I shouldn't and I should go, but I couldn't leave him now.
"I am afraid of getting into this. I am falling in love with you, but I just lost the love of my life. I don't know if I can go through the same pain."
I said to him as he held my arms in his hand. I could honestly say I love him, but it was confusing me. Everything was confusing me now. How could we both participate in imprinting after our relationships turned bad and our loved ones died? How could this go on? I looked at him and all the confusion washed away.
I couldn't think straight anymore. I stared at him in the eyes. His were so perfectly set on myn. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I knew we couldn't leave each other now. It was official that we would be together. Imprinting left its mark on each other and usually bound you forever to that person.
I looked at him in astonishment and happiness. I never though I would be able to get over Wolfenheart and now I seemed I could. I wrapped my arms around Seth. I was fully attached and now all my pain and sadness was gone. I couldn't live without him no matter what now.
I looked up into his eyes again and wanted to kiss him and move further, but knew this might be too much to ask.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 12, 2008 21:24:01 GMT -6
I was kind of nervous when she wrapped her arms around me and slowly I wrapped my own around her small form. It was such a good feeling to have someone care about me, like no one has in months and yet I was afraid it was all a dream, a crazy dream to make me want to go insane. I kissed the top of Natasha's head and kept my arms around her like a protective circle to keep her safe. I had felt the pain of losing a lover and I understood her in ways she might not understand. But we stood there in each others arms and feeling like it was a confusing thing to do after losing our lovers. I looked at her and she was looking up at me and my dark blue eyes sparkled with happyness. I also smiled for the frist time in months and it was a real smile, not a forced one to made others not feel pitty for me. I hated it when someone pitty me and I never took it to well. But now wasn't the time to be thinking of something like that and I just hugged Natasha feeling like all the love I had, had for my lover come out in a wave of love for this beauiful girl in my arms. I looked at her eyes and wondered what color the were. It was hard to tell what color, but I guess I could live with that. I should have put some close on before she woke up and not just put a blanket over myself. But it was to late to think about that and well he didn't want to brake them from being in each others arms for love and confort.
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Post by natasha on Aug 12, 2008 21:39:26 GMT -6
I looked up at his beautiful smile that erupted. His attracting blue ones stared into my own chocolate brown ones. I immediately allowed tears to fill my eyes. I didn't deserve a second chance at this. I really didn't. I still smiled at him, but I felt guilt at the corner of my mind peaking it's way through to try and ruin this for me. I kissed him again to try and flood the guilt and all the other emotions besides love for him away. I didn't break the kiss this time. I breathed through my nose so I wouldn't have to break it. I loved him more than anything in the world. I desired to go further, but would hold myself back. I wasn't going to allow it to go that far. Not tonight. I couldn't tonight. It was too fast. Even though my body, my flesh may desire that, I couldn't allow it. My lips moved against his as the only sound that could be heard was the crickets outside in the dark woods. I smiled slightly at this fact. I had never had a peaceful day until this moment even with Wolfenheart, it was never this peaceful. My eyes closed shut as I deepened the kiss. I almost wish I had clothing to make this a bit easier instead of having to hold a blanket around myself. I lifted the hand that was wrapped around his torso and lifted it to the back of his head as I interlaced my hands in his shaggy blond hair.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 12, 2008 21:54:15 GMT -6
I responed to the kiss and as I tied the blanket that was around my waist, I brought both hands up (after he tied his blanket around his waist so it wouldn't fall off) to have then on the side of her face. I trail my finger down her arms and with the desire to go far with this, I also had a desire to not do so. I would go by her wants and not by my own which would most likely be hard to with the fact of me, being male and all. But that was no even part of my point and it was that I wanted to wait for her not matter how hard it was on me to wait. I did this with terry when she was still alive and we were lovers, I waited for when she was ready. SO I was going to do the same for Natasha, wait for when she was ready to and not so a word to what I wanted until she was ready. But I shook a little with the force of my desire and with the fact that I was trying really hard not to take her here and now. I moved my mouth with hers and then kiss was so wonderful and It would take anyones breath away. I did as she did, I breathed through my nose as well, so we weren't have to stop for much needed air. I enjoyed this kiss and I enjoyed just having her with me. It was another desire, that felt like I just wanted to please Natasha and make her happy for the rest of my life.
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Post by natasha on Aug 12, 2008 22:11:24 GMT -6
My body shivered with eagerness. I wanted to go further, but I wouldn't and couldn't. No matter what, I wanted to do other things first. I know it might not be on his mind, but I wanted to get married. I had enough money to get us there and I wanted to before I was to go further. I had to show in some way I was serious about this relationship and marriage seemed the best way to do so. I felt his arms descend and I shivered more. We both shivered against each other's skin. We both desired this, but we knew we wouldn't get to that before we absolutely were sure of it. I broke the kiss as he did and considered for a moment and then closed my eyes. I couldn't.
"Seth, we should wait for this. I would like to get married before we go through this. I am old fashioned that way."
I explained to him in a soft tone as I looked at him. I knew he wouldn't like the fact that I stopped kissing him. I fiddled with my blanket to fasten it a certain way that it wouldn't fall. I placed both hands on the back of his neck. I didn't say I would refrain from kissing him. I kissed him deeper this time. The pressure brought pleasure to my lips as I wraped my hands around some of his strands of hair making them curl around my finger. He would need a hair cut soon.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 13, 2008 7:21:40 GMT -6
I listened to her as she said we would have to wait and I understood more then she knew. I wanted to get to know her more even though I was a bit impatient and some people would said I never acted as though I was impatient not once. But then she kissed me again and couldn't help but place my hand on the small of her back as she had her small hands in my shoulder long hair. I felt a small thought as if she was thinking it to me and I smiled while our lips were still locked with each others. I felt like someone was thinking that I needed a hair cut and after a moment the kiss even blocked that thought out of my mind. I hadn't meant to, but I did something that would most likely throw us over the edge of our desire and I couldn't help but take the kiss a little bit deeper after that. I was trying not to do something like that and really I tried, I knew that she might stop us from kissing if I was going to do something like that again. But before my mind had time to recover from the shock of the pleaseing feelings, I didn't it one more time and the male that I was, It was going to be hard not to do that. But for a moment or so, I tried to cool myself down even though I was still kissing her.
ooc: you can say what he did and well Sorry if I put you in a tight spot. I can't think of what he did and really I don't want to be the one to think of what it was he did.
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