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Post by natasha on Aug 28, 2008 18:54:04 GMT -6
I wrapped my arms around him. I needed him here. I couldn't bare to loose him. I know he couldn't bare to loose me or the other child, but I didn't want to loose him. I cried into his chest and shook my head. "Seth, I can't do this. I can't just sit around and be useless." I said to him trying to convince him to let me come even though I knew he wouldn't allow it. I brought my hands up to his chest and pounded his chest gently. I needed for him to be alive and alright and breathing. I couldn't bare to see him die and I couldn't stop emphasizing that point.
I stayed scilent for moments on end just staring at the white walls blankly. I got up out of his arms and left him there. I walked outside onto the patio and stayed standing while leaning on the railing with my head in my hands. I felt the cold metal against my cheek and I lowered my left hand to look at it. It was beautiful, but it didn't seem to cheer me up. My focus was gone and I was focused on Seth. I wanted to go along, but he wouldn't let me. I returned my hand to my head and stared out at the crashing waves and the beautiful cloudless sky. It had turned out to be nice weather for today and it killed me that that was how it was. Why wasn't I happy? Why wasn't I content? I had everything I wanted. Now I felt like I wanted to get married before the fight so I can say we had the chance.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 28, 2008 19:47:48 GMT -6
I heared her words and her crying, she pounded my bare chest with a small fist. I couldn't help but want to protect her and to keep the un-born child safe. when she left to stand out said I sighed and sat there on the bed for a few minutes. I had to think and get this over protective part of me under control. She was strong and a Werewolf much like myself. She could take care of herself and yet the first time we ran in to Chace, the baby was killed, she was hurt. I kept seeing her getting hurt and seeing all the blood from her losing the baby. I had to lossing up some and let her take care of herself in this fight, no matter how much it scares me.
I sighed again and knowing that I didn't want my future wife to hate me, I went out to the patio. I came up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist with a hand on her belly "I'm sorry...I just don't know whats wrong with me......Ever since......Chace took our first chance away.......its been hard and I dont want to ever see you in that kind of pain again." I said in a calm tone. I loved her to much to see her that kind of pain again and it broke my heart in the beginning to see her so broken down in to tears. I had felt so helpless and useless at the time, that I wanted to take her place. But I knew I couldn't and thats what hurt the most. I had my head on her shoulder kissing it and I breathed in her scent "join the fight if you must, but promise this, that you will get out of there when you feel that its becoming to much for you OK" I whispered in her ear. I was going to let her join this fight and it scared me to death.
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Post by natasha on Aug 28, 2008 20:21:43 GMT -6
I heard Seth come out and didn't turn my head. That action would only lead to tears that would never stop. I just stared out and felt his arms wrap around my thin waist and I held onto one of his arms with my hand and felt the tears linger on my eyes, but I didn't let them fall. I listened to him and then glanced at him. "Seth, you know I don't hate you right. I know that's what you are thinking. I love you and couldn't ever hate you. I just don't want to hear that you die and not have the chance to do anything about it. Thank you for allowing this. I will be very careful. He will not get the chance to hurt our baby." I said as I took both of his hands and placed it on my stomach. I felt warmth go there and stood up and smiled and glanced at Seth who now had his head rested on my shoulder.
I placed my hands on his and felt worthless to a point. I wanted to satisfy all of Seth, but knew that that was impossible even with everyone it was like that. I kissed him gently on the lips and looked out toward the crashing waves that seemed to overlap themselves every time they compacted with the shore in a belligerent state. I began wondering what we could do today to get our minds off of this. It was too much to just sit here and think about it. Although, it was nice standing here with Seth wrapped around each other. Maybe we could have a campfire tonight or something.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 28, 2008 21:02:02 GMT -6
I listened to Natasha talk and then felt her hands on my own, she moved them both on to her small belly. I seem to close my eyes for a few moments to enjoy the happyness I felt with the knowing I was going to be a father. It was very pleaseing and made me smile again. We had to do something to get our minds off the fight that was coming in the near future and I started to think about what we could do.
Then a thought came to me "do you want to eat out this morning" I asked her with a smile. She was going to be hungry a lot once she was more far along in carrying the child. I could only hope that she wouldn't be eating to much by this time and I would be right, it was just the beginning of her being pregnant. It was a wonder that she hadn't thrown up again yet and I started having a feeling that she would be getting sick through out the day. I sighed "lets see the sight of Florida Natasha and maybe walk around some" I said with a smile. It was going to be a hot day and with the way we always stayed at a temp of 108, we were going to burn up some. Well it wouldn't hurt to wear sun srcan and I just wanted to be in the woods. But sadly, there were no woods or at least I thought there wasn't
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Post by natasha on Aug 28, 2008 21:16:57 GMT -6
I heard him list ideas and all of them were good. "Everything seems like a good idea. We can start off with breakfast and then move on to walk around a bit." I said as I took him into the bedroom with his arms wrapped around me. I walked in and walked out of his arms to dig through my dresser and found a pair of jean shorts and a t-shirt. I grabbed them all and took them out and tore off my old clothing and put the new ones on and glanced at them in the mirror. It was perfect for a hot day. I noticed I had become quite hungry and hoped we would be getting breakfast soon. I glanced at Seth and sat down on the bed waiting for him to get done. I layed down on the comfy bed and noticed it wasn't made so I stood up.
I made the bed and layed down on the soft white blanket. It was so nice in the private hotel. My mind wandered to what Florida was like. I had only seen part of it and it was beautiful so far. Especially the view we had. I wondered if there was many stores and how different it was comparatively speaking to Forks. I found that this day was rigged with all different types of emotions that switched every minute. I heard my stomach growl and I knew Seth did too. I laughed at it and looked at Seth.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 28, 2008 21:35:44 GMT -6
I watched her get dressed first and then I had gone to do so to. But I heared something before I even turned around and I looked at Natasha laughing. I then realized it was her stomach which made that sound and I started to laugh to. I walked over and kissed her on the fore head "let me get dressed before we go or people are going to think I'm crazy" I said chuckling. I kissed her on the fore head again and turned around to get myself some clothing to wear. I just picked out a pair of shorts and a nice shirt with the florida state on it "hows this look" I asked. There was also a cartoon on it and it said something, but I couldn't tell what it said.
Well I was dressed and so I grabbed the keys to the car. We walked out and found the car at the end of the drive way. I hadn't parked it there last night did I and for some odd reason I thought I had parked it up higher on this drive way. I pushed the thought away and remembered that it had been getting dark out and it was hard to tell how far up I'd gone. I just jumped in and started it up and backed out. As I was driving and we passed a lot of places that looked like a good place to eat, but I didn't know. They all looked like they cost a lot of money and I didnt want to spend to much on food "Where would you like to eat Natasha, they all look like good places, but they also look like the cost a lot" I said to her.
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Post by natasha on Aug 28, 2008 21:59:44 GMT -6
I laughed at what he said and smiled and looked at the outfit he chose and nodded. It worked and didn't look bad. We headed out the door and I noticed the car was parked a bit further than we thought it was. I paced the the car and hopped in and as we started driving my mind went blank and I just looked at the beautiful surrounding and then we hit the strip of where the food was. I heard him ask which one and I glanced at all of them and noticed a small diner in the corner of the strip mall.
"How about the one in the corner over there?" I said as I pointed to the far end of the strip of restaurants. It looked as though it would be fairly decently priced there. I smiled as I glanced at Seth. There would have been no way someone else would have cheared me up if he wasn't here. I went back to thinking of the day where I attempted to kill myself by jumping off a cliff. I remembered that was the day where I hurt Samantha and we separated for about a month. I remembered that was the day I meant Chris. A few good and a few bad outcomes came from that.
I patted his inner thigh and smiled. "I love you Seth." I said in a sweet tone as his appearance captivated my full attention and he would only be able to do that.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 28, 2008 22:41:45 GMT -6
I saw the place she pointed out and then I felt her small hand on my inner thigh. I smiled at the next words she said and quickly grabbed her hand, to leave a kiss on it. I kept my eye's on the road and took a few turns and we were soon turning in to the parking lot of the place Natasha picked. I parked us near a place where I'd be able to see the car and make sure no one trys to take it. I jumped out and went to Natasha's side of the car to open her door "my lady" I said holding out a hand for her to take. I chuckled at how this must look like and felt kind of like a fool trying to make her feel happy like this.
I looked in to her brown eyes and couldn't help but smile at her. This was one of the best days of my life and well actually the second best day. The was meeting Natasha and this was my third best day, because Natasha was going to have a Baby that I helped make. My second best day was when I asked Natasha to marry me and she said yes, it had only been yesterday that she said yes. I still couldn't get over it and I loved her even more then when I frist met her on that day a few months ago. I took her hand and helped her out of the car.
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Post by natasha on Aug 28, 2008 22:55:54 GMT -6
I smiled as he opened the door for me and held out a hand for me to take. I giggled and blushed. I took his hand and said, "My, my mister, you have some nice manners don't you?" I said laughing to myself as I held his hand in myn and we began to walk to the diner. It was so nice to have him here on vacation with me. It was going to be delightful and I couldn't help, but think about my wedding day and how it was going to all work out. I thought about my dress and remembered the very nice lacey one I had that my mother passed on to me from her wedding. It was so beautiful. I tried to picture what Samantha and Chris would look like in bridesmaid dresses. My father handing me off. I smiled and glanced at Seth.
I walked up to the door of the restaurant and watched as Seth once again held the door open for me. I laughed again which resulted in a few stares coming from people who were eating in this diner. I chuckled to myself as I held Seth's hand and brought him closer. I walked up to the waiting sign and a waitress looked at us and looked at Seth especially at him. I layed my left hand on the potium and noticed she saw it and I smiled. He was my man and no one would ever take him away. I noticed that the waitress grabbed the menus and guided us to our seats and we both sat down. "Everybody is so serious....." I whispered as I laughed. I wondered why.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 31, 2008 11:38:24 GMT -6
I'd seen how Natasha acted when the waitress had looked at us, but mostly me. I smiled when she in a way showed her ring and the waitress took us to our table. I looked at what they had and had a hard time figureing out what I wanted. But then I heared Natasha "It might be because we're a young couple or their just having a bad day, who knows" I whispered to her with a small smile on my face. The waitress came and asked us what we want to drink "hmm, Dr. Pepper for me and maybe tea for you Natasha" I asked her while facing her. I had thought maybe since she was pregnant she should start taking better care of herself and the baby, since she wasn't just caring for herself anymore. I was just looking out for her best interest and for her to be health through out her being pregnant.
It was nerve racking to think that she could lose this baby too and well it worried me a bit. I didn't want her to through the pain of losing another child. I wanted to take care of her and keep her safe as long as I could. But she was very indepened of herself and well I hoped she would be the hint of me asking this. I couldn't stand the pain of another child gone and I knew she wouldn't be able to stand it either. But she had her own mind to make up and I couldn't force this on her.
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Post by natasha on Aug 31, 2008 12:06:37 GMT -6
"True, very well could be true." I said smiling back at Seth. I heard the waitress come and ask what we would like to drink. I agreed with Seth. "Then tea it is." I said nodding to the waitress. I liked tea actually and it would be a good thing to drink during my pregnancy. I didn't want to screw anything up. I wanted the baby to come out happy and healthy. I wasn't so sure about the happy part, but I would be glad to have her here with me when she came into the world.
The waitress walked away and I reached out my hand to intertwine with Seth's. I think I was going to have scrambled eggs with toast. It sounded very appetizing at the moment. "Good thinking by the way." I said as I smiled in appreciation. My mind wandered to Chace and I wanted to talk about him, but there was some things that had to be left unsaid in this restaurant only because there were humans and trusting a human with this information would be stupid. In fact, I don't think you could trust a human with this information.
I would wait to talk about this due to the fact that it was a questionable topic to be overheard and plus, it might ruin the moment that we were sharing and I definately did not want that. I wanted us to be happy together without having to ruin it or be uncomfortable.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 31, 2008 12:36:44 GMT -6
I rubbed her hands while they were in mine and I looked in those brown eyes. I felt like I most have gone to heaven and yet I wasn't dead. But still I smile and well I wanted to talk to her about when the wedding should be "why don't we have the wedding next month Natasha" I asked all of a sudden on a whisper for only her to hear. I couldn't help but ask this and well I knew some how that she wanted to talke about Chace. I didn't want to talk about him of all people and well I had no choice really. But we would talk about him later and what we was going to do with him. For now I just wanted to plan this wedding and hope for the best from her dad when we told him.
I had a feeling that when we returned to La Push and told him, he might not take it to easy. I wasn't even sure if he'd accpeted me as a son-in-law for that matter and It made me a little neverous about telling him. But he had to know and it wouldn't be easy keeping it from him. So for both our sakes and for the life of our new memer, we'd have to tell him. For all that was good I hoped he would accepted this for Natasha's sake and for my own. I was hoping that he wouldn't plan on beating me up or something that and that also make me nervous about going back to La Push to tell him.
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Post by natasha on Aug 31, 2008 12:55:30 GMT -6
I watched Seth and noticed his eyes seemed to hold a nervous touch to them and I tilted my head questionably and thought for a bit about two things that could possibly make him nervous. One being telling my father about the baby and the other being about Chace. The first possibility seemed more likely at the moment.
"You know my father won't harm you, right? I know him well. That's why I was able to stop him from hurting you earlier. Now that he knows you are something meaningful to me, he won't hurt you. I know he won't. I won't let him firstly and foremost."
I said to try and calm Seth's mood. "Seth, relax. You won't get hurt. I'll be there with you. I love you." I said trying to comfort him and I leaned up over the table and pressed my lips against his and smiled. I knew this always soothed his mood if he was in some sort of knot that wouldn't seem to go away. This was the nice thing between us. We always did this to calm the other down and it worked out very well.
I sat down again and smiled as I folded my hands together and placed my elbows on the table and rested my head on my hands while I looked at him. I remembered doing this often when I had to take pictures. It was a good pose actually, but I would imagine that Seth would say I look good in any position.
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Post by Seth Meyer on Aug 31, 2008 17:08:10 GMT -6
I heared her words as she guessed why I was nervous and when I looked up I was surprised with a kiss. I responed like always and almost right away relaxed before she backed up. I smiled, she always seemed to know what to do to help calm me and well it was the same with me with her. It always felt great that we knew each other that well and for that matter, before then our own parents knew us. I saw the position she took with her elbows on the table and her head in her hands. I for one thought she looked good in any position and I meant any.
I couldn't help but smile and then when that Waitress came, I wished right then that she'd been a little late with our drinks. But I sighed and thanked her for our drinks before she asked what we wanted to eat. I looked at what they had really quick and picked something out that I wanted "OK I want Bacon, scrambled eggs and toast for me and Natasha, you wanted scrambled eggs and toast right" I asked with a smile. I some how knew what she wanted and it was most likely because I'd seen what she looked at. It was strange ordering for her and yet knowing what she wanted. But that was me, the observed one and knowing right off what someone wanted. I hoped my little girl would have this too and know what people wanted before they said anything. It would be odd, but it would be kind of good to have if she ever bought a gift for someone.
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Post by natasha on Aug 31, 2008 21:11:12 GMT -6
I watched at Seth ordered it and raised my eyebrows in amazement at how he automatically knew what I wanted. The waitress walked away. I tilted my head slightly. "Hmmm....your good." I said laughing slightly and gazed into his beautiful and playful eyes and after a moment or two stood up slightly and kissed him again, longer than the last and sat down again this time correlating my hands in his and smiled at him. This had been the best days of my life so far.
I glanced at my beautiful, sparkling engagement ring and smiled sweetly. "Seth, where did you get this ring? It is absolutely beautiful." I said as my eyes reached his probably also emitting a small smile. I wondered what would have happened if I had never met Seth for that matter. I tried to consider how long I would have lived considering that I was ready to kill myself before the night I met Seth. That night was one of the worst and best memories in my mind.
I placed a hand on my stomach and smiled with excitement. I wanted my baby girl to come, my little baby Ann. I wondered if this baby would grow quickly. I wondered what would happen if that did. My mind raced on the fact that the baby was coming and I considered ways of how I would deal with every situation possible even though that was completely impossible to think of every problem. I sighed as I looked at Seth. I must have looked somewhat hilarious to him as my brow became furrowed.
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